♥Feb 27th, 2012
will delete my tumblr.. please read!

seriously, tumblr destroyed me. tumblr isn’t guilty, i am! i’m fucking emotional instabil and it killed me. first i thought it was the best descision in my life because it made me happy to see my follower number growing. but it didn’t hold long. and with every lost follower sth in me died. the pictures, the sad ones seemed to mean me and i started feeling like that and finally i started cutting. on holiday with my best friend she said “haha, i only see you eating”, this made me going to the toilet after every meal and you know what i did there. so i decided to leave this all behind me, get more reallife and try to be happier. i was like “i start loving my cuts because they are part of me and i accept them because they help me to feel better” but then i realized they broke me more than i already were. and in summer i want to show my body without cuts and tooooo skinny body! so i will delete my tumblr, if you think i shouldn’t, write me, i beg! please do sth to make me a little more happier and i think of leaving my blog how it is, not deleting it and going on when i’m more emotional stabil but only if there are people who actually like my blog so tell me if you do!
- i post this all even tough i know that some people who follow me know me in person!

so please take this as motivation too! i am at the ground and i will try everything to make me feel better so please if you’re down too do sth against it, don’t take it as godgiven. change sth!

i love you all, doesn’t matter if i’ll delete my blog or not, i love you anyhow!
ps: please forgive me my bad english :/